It's unfortunate she doesn't understand how strong your need it for it and support you. I've met a few older retired guys in the past who's wives couldn't have sex but understood their need and so supported them. They masturbated out of their love and loyalty to their wives, to remain faithful, and they understood that masturbation was not as fulfilling, long-term, as intercourse, and so that's really why they masturbated so much. That's what the wives believed anyway. Not having intercourse the usual 2 or 3 times a week simply meant they needed to masturbate a couple times a day and they accepted that. Have you considered leveling with her about that?
That you get pleasure from sharing shows you have a warm heart. I'm sure the wanking and producing video consumes a great deal of your time so it's important you know it is appreciated.
Love watching you shoot your cum. Ample and Powerful.
So generous and thoughtful to post your ejaculation like you do. They mean a lot and you do it so well.